September 10, 2010

• What is wrong with me! -_-

  Old message that mobile to Xanga.com never sent though:

  Right now, I'm a bit crazed. Had to spend some money toward gifts and getting all dolled up for a friends wedding. I'm thinking my light bill check may bounce and after all this preparation for tonight, I might be able to go. It all boils down to a totally last minute decision of whether my boyfriend will make it, be able to rent a car and finally pick me up to drive to the wedding. Initially I thought he would rent the car early in the day, go to work, then drive home, get dressed and drive to pick me up. I even volunteered to meet by him to minimize time. Now he wants to experiment with renting by hours with Zip car and go to work, pay a cab to his house, get dressed, pay a cab to the Zip car in his location and then drive to pick me up, get to the wedding party 3 hours late (I suspected it would've been at most 2 hours late) and then spend 2 hours there and drive back, drop me off and return the car. Only spending $75 total. I'm very pissed that he's deciding to skimp on money now of all times, when its something that I've been telling him I wanted to do for a months now, back in July. He even asked if we could just not go now. After the fact that I chipped in money to help pay for the suit he would wear.

  I'm not even sure I want to take next Wednesday off for my birthday (his suggestion) because he may not even get the day off to spend it with me.

  I just can't make plans. Anytime I try, I feel like I'm failing. When I ask about doing something, he gives me a positive statement about it, making me think he wants to do it and then when I plan around it, I'm shot down. I hate this. I shouldn't even bother anymore. Just plan for myself, I guess. I thought I was being helpful.

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